YNP recap

It’s a short enough trip to visit the park in full, too bad we didn’t have more company to join us or we could have ventured down south more to cover Bryce Canyon, Zion and even Las Vegas! It’s more like a tiring than a relaxing trip, but we spent more time to talk than we used to. And I just realized I didn’t participate in any group setting activity for more than 2 months at least. Then it dawned on me only true friends still keep in touch with me, and those who aren’t were just “fellowship dudes” … Tells me something about the North American culture of Chinese churches, or just us? I’m thankful that there are still true Christians around, who do care even though I’m not contributing much nowadays.

Dilemma

It’s a dilemma if you want to be nice to just those you like, or be nice to everyone, just like the Bible says: “love thy neighbors”. And it’s just become an occupational hazard if I choose the first approach. How can one love those horrible people?! It is just impossible! I interpret that as respect to everyone who are created according to the image of God, and I will still keep my distance from them! No joke about it, there are people who are definitely going straight to hell not because the love of God can’t save them but they throw it away. There’s where they end up, eternal ultimate condemnation!

Living will continue…

I found an example of living will online, and I realized majority of the content is about decisions regarding medical treatment during critical moment. Interestingly, one of the points read like this: “If I have been diagnosed as pregnant and that diagnosis is known to my physician, this declaration shall have no force or effect during the course of my pregnancy.” Immediately I was thinking “NO”! How would I want my baby to be born to the earth without my love, and lives in grieve without me, the mother! I also wouldn’t want to be departed from my child, the one who came from my womb. Then I thought, if the baby left the world with me, the baby would have missed the time to experience the love of God, which is much greater than what I can offer. Also the love of the baby’s father, who also loves the baby as much as I would! After some thought, I agreed with what it says. If my life has to be sustained by life support and I was pregnant, I would want to carry the baby the whole ten months and through delivery before pulling the plug. The baby should have the chance to experience the love of heavenly Father, and earthly father, and bring them joy in return during the time living on earth. Now the question is, where should I start my living will???

Same old story

Just saw a friend’s blog signing again toward the fact that nurses are always neglected of the significant of their roles in the medical field. For me, I think:

Nursing is a calling

Medical doctor is a profession

And I am not looking to get credit of what I do…

Unemployment

is not something that I’m ashamed of telling others, it’s what they said saddens me: “come on, don’t be so picky now!”, “hey, there are so many jobs out there for nurses now! I never heard of unemployment for nurses before!”, “It must be Jade who’s been so picky about everything!”… It’s been hard for me to apply for jobs somehow lately, and life is even hard in general for me, spiritual and emotion wise. It is almost destine for me to slip into this dark and sad toil after hearing opinions like these, even from my friends. I just wonder I must be a horrible and arrogant human being who doesn’t deserve a bit of sympathy in times like this.

I had an unsettling situation with my employer from the home health agency because I refused to take up more patients, so she in turn cut all my previous patients down to one! No one know about this, and it’s not necessary for anyone to know anyway. Am I pick and choose what I like and dislike? It’s the work ethnics of that place I cannot tolerate, even in the time of needs I would not want to take up more “unfit” cases for them. So what that makes me? I told myself to let go of any dreams and wishes, just be an ordinary American workforce, anyway I had been trying simply just to live… At least for now, so I won’t cry myself to sleep anymore.

I believe in the one truth, somehow sometimes it makes me fragile and sometimes strong. Now it’s the time of being fragile, and I felt like million pieces everywhere ~

One of the things I took for granted

If a girl has to suffer procecution and life-threatening events in order to go to school and she still insisted in going, I can give thanks everyday for the privilege I am having in the America.

Sometimes I wondered why people are treated so very differently across the horizon of this tiny earth in the galaxy, when I can receive education freely this side of the earth and others suffer series consequences even with the attempt to go to school. Put aside economical reasons, I always think that women are considered “less fortunate” when it comes to the comparison of rights men have. Whoever took a decent class of sociology would know that women in general are treated unequally less important than men in the society, especially inferior in some countries with traditions benefit the males rather than the females.

I am touched by the bravery of this young girl because she insisted go back to school under such harsh circumstances, and also because she has a strong mind that no one can deter her decision, not even years of tradition and suppression. I should have treasured all the resources I could have and made good use of them all… It’s time for another paradim shift!

Now I am even more amazed by the fact that God chose a woman as a vessel coming to earth, and reviewed Himself first to a woman when risen from the dead. One thing I longed for very much – to meet Him face to face one day, hopefully soon.

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Concierge Medicine

Have you imagined having your doctor’s cell phone number and able to call him/her 24/7 for whatever medical needs? And the doctor will see you at anytime even accompany you to the ER and arrange for immediate medical attention? This is quite a new service and it comes with a price, which unexpectedly not-so-pricey-at-all in my point of view. I can see this becoming popular and eventually could be the main stream to practice medicine. I am thinking that this way doctors can cut cost on having a “full” office, no billing issues and cut cost on receptionists… Hope that nurse can still maintain a position there… ;b

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Day #2

It’s a day of intense walking in downtown Toronto and TTC. Went to parts of the city that both my friend and I had never been before: the University of Toronto, Royal Ontario Museum, and Yonge Street shopping. I had the best Dim Sum in Toronto this morning, but I don’t think we’ll have time to have tea again in that place!! We also had very nice Shanghai cuisine this evening, too bad we don’t have anything close to that in Chicago. I will have to eat less after coming back to Chicago.

My feet are hurting right now, but my mind is still running off far away… like this morning… even with such intense activities. Don’t know how long it will last, and don’t know if this is good or not!