Dilemma

It’s a dilemma if you want to be nice to just those you like, or be nice to everyone, just like the Bible says: “love thy neighbors”. And it’s just become an occupational hazard if I choose the first approach. How can one love those horrible people?! It is just impossible! I interpret that as respect to everyone who are created according to the image of God, and I will still keep my distance from them! No joke about it, there are people who are definitely going straight to hell not because the love of God can’t save them but they throw it away. There’s where they end up, eternal ultimate condemnation!

Living will continue…

I found an example of living will online, and I realized majority of the content is about decisions regarding medical treatment during critical moment. Interestingly, one of the points read like this: “If I have been diagnosed as pregnant and that diagnosis is known to my physician, this declaration shall have no force or effect during the course of my pregnancy.” Immediately I was thinking “NO”! How would I want my baby to be born to the earth without my love, and lives in grieve without me, the mother! I also wouldn’t want to be departed from my child, the one who came from my womb. Then I thought, if the baby left the world with me, the baby would have missed the time to experience the love of God, which is much greater than what I can offer. Also the love of the baby’s father, who also loves the baby as much as I would! After some thought, I agreed with what it says. If my life has to be sustained by life support and I was pregnant, I would want to carry the baby the whole ten months and through delivery before pulling the plug. The baby should have the chance to experience the love of heavenly Father, and earthly father, and bring them joy in return during the time living on earth. Now the question is, where should I start my living will???

May be I can live till 100…

If I’m like my patient, tough and determined! She is a hundred-year-old lady who came to the hospital with some weakness. She was quite “pissed” when I met her the first day saying that you people are not treating me the right way just because I’m a hundred! I was kind of caught off-guarded since I did nothing disrespectful to her, actually I considered myself being really patience and kind… I was sort of scared off by her first impression but gradually understood her determination not to be looked down or treated differently just because she’s a hundred years old. Her feisty little temperment probably also coming from the fact that she is hard of hearing, I have to almost scream to get her hear what I said and I am not good at it. After getting to know her family, I saw such family ties webbed tightly between them, how wonderful is their love and care for each other. I think it’s ok to live a hundred if I could be like her…

a question

I wondered is it a valid reason to love God because He love us lately. I committed to believe in Jesus long time ago and do love Him without a doubt. It’s just things happened around me lately caused me to think about a question like this. Living in a “do it my way” world nowadays I realised people around me no longer do anything out of compassion, mercy, or need. Everything goes depends on whether I like it or not, if it pays or not, if it feels good or not… Even twisted the truth to make themselves feel good about things they refused to do/face. This phenomenon pushed me into almost not believing truth genuine love or friendship anymore, just pure selfishness and self-centeredness. I’m so done with this that I’m ready to leave everything behind at this point and be done and over with. If it sounds a little over-reacted, I think I’m just being true to myself that’s all. It’s one of my groomy days.