Should I look for a new job to make my new one old? This place has been working out for me till lately. They wanted me to work more weekends now, which I am very reluctant to due to church activities. Some of the nurses’ assistants are not helpful to me sometimes since I’m new here. The hospital’s central supply is always out of stock! The wound VAC I ordered for one of my patient a week ago just came… who already discharged to nursing home couple days ago! At least I have it now, then it will be available when I need one. Gradually I feel like this is such a crappy place, over-working employees with minimal benefits and cutting us short. If I go find a new job, where and what should I be looking for? I have a strong sense of leaving this state.
Life sucks from time to time, but that’s not why I do not want to live a long life. I never wanted to live too long because of the human suffering and finding no one I can love without reservation on earth. I tried but this is much harder than I thought, maybe we human beings are rebellious in nature. God’s will has been clear to me and He reaffirmed again and again, things still do not seem promising to me. I’m weak and worrisome, I don’t know how long I can last.
